What's the point of having so much friends where only a few stay with you .

Tsk , pot calling kettle black .
Anyway , I don't have to bother about these nonsensical stuffs because I know they aren't true .
I myself know very well that I ain't these type of person .
2011's a new year indeed , new problems to face , new topics to study on .
So much problems , so much conflicts , yet , life still goes on . It would never stop for anyone of us .
Yes , there were much conflicts with my friends . I felt as if some were betraying me .
Although I didn't mention much to them , but deep down in my heart , I felt so angry , so upset , disappointed and stuffs .
Some even knew that , those were the ones I hated so much . And yet , they were sitting together , chatting so happily just right in front of my face . I felt much humiliation .
It totally turns me off , but what can I do . That's what they want isn't it . Tsk .
Now I know , who are those that stand by me and who are those that don't . (':
I wanna grow older , get out of this school , get out of this fucking life I'm having now . And I wont get to see those shit faces I hate ever again . If you were me , what would you have done ?
Put yourself in my shoes , and think about what obstacles I'm having right now .